I know I can’t be the only mom in the world that spoils their child just a tad bit. I don’t beat myself up over it. Growing up as an only child I always had the best of everything and didn’t have any siblings to share with. When I look back now, I can definitely see that my family- especially my grandparents- spoiled me to death. Now that I am older, wiser, and more experienced I don’t really look to materialistic things to make me happy.
Every other weekend Toodie goes to her other grandparents house to spend time with them and give mommy a break. While I love, love, love… the free time,space, chance to relax …. I miss her terribly! It feels strange not being with her and most of the time I don’t even know what the heck to do with myself. When I go shopping or to the mall I always find myself buying her a little something to leave on her bed as a surprise when she comes home. Now I don’t go and buy a million things or spend a ridiculous amount of money. Sometimes i buy movies, puzzles, a new game for her leap pad, a dress, new pair of pajamas, a sticker book, etc. Different little things. I don’t know how I really got in the habit of doing this but my mom always tells me, “Now look what you started!”
I remember when I was younger my mom would do the same with me. When I would go away with my grandparents to their vacation home for a week, my mom always made sure to pack me a few surprises for the long car ride there. It was always those teeny bopper magazines, word search puzzle books, and yummy snacks. I always looked forward to those special treats because I knew my mom took the time to pack them for me. I am well aware that by doing this I am creating a little monster but I just can’t help myself. I don’t do it every time she is away or every weekend that she is at grandma’s house. I noticed the more often I was doing this, she would expect it when she came home. Then that would take all the fun out of it and also the whole
“surprise” aspect. I had to start doing it here and there. But I still love seeing her face when there is a surprise in her room waiting for her when she returns home.
“surprise” aspect. I had to start doing it here and there. But I still love seeing her face when there is a surprise in her room waiting for her when she returns home.
I know that most of it has to do with how much I miss her when she is away from me. Usually she is only gone for 2-3 days at the most but that time really kills me. I have been with Toodie every day since she was born. As soon as I gave birth to her I gave up my job and became a stay at home mommy. I never regretted it and I am so thankful I was even able to do so. While i am very fortunate for the situation I am in, I feel like it has also cursed me. I don’t feel complete when Toodie isn’t with me. No matter what I am doing I am always thinking about her and wondering how her day is going. When I am out and about I always have her in mind. If I see a movie she will like at Walmart or a cute dress at the mall, I will pick it up without any thought. It’s like my mind is wired! I guess this is normal huh? Being a first time mom I have nothing to compare it to. It makes my day seeing her eyes wide when she walks in her room and discovers something special waiting for her. Am i a sucker? YEP! Do i mind? Not at all!
